Trying To Hide

This is like a multi-blogpost hahaha okay what does that supposed to mean ? Idk hahahahaha and yeah , inspired by my friends' life updates wtv

1 . Okay , nak celebrate new year ke tak ? Macam takda mood je .

2 . This time last year , I had the time of my life ; going for endless drive to nowhere , trying food at all the restaurants/stalls in Kajang and Bangi , cracking my head to come up with excuses for coming home late , being so bloody broke bcs of the intake of bloody addictive chocolate cream chip ev-ver-ry-day , getting high with caffeine , sugar , excitement and some other stuff hihihihih , stuffing my face with various kind of food ( believe me , it was like 'Jalan-jalan Cari Makan' hahahaha ) , laughing my ass off with my goofy superheroes hahahahaha good times good old times . I was so fucking happy and healthy hahaha I was just full of lots lots and lots of nice feelings. But now , everything is opposite . All I do is hahahahaha nothing ?

3 . Opah is willing to pay for my study overseas if I'm taking the TESL course . It's in New Zealand or something . My grandma lovesss english . God . Hahahaha . Idk . The offer sounds fun . Thing isssssssssss......I'm such a spoilt child ! How in the name of arse I'm supposed to survive on my own ?! But yeah , it sounds fun ! Anddddd I think I really need to get away from here . Can I like go and not come back at all ? Haha . It's not as if anyone would be missing me or something hahahahahaha .

4 . Few months back , I was what matters most , but now , it's like I've never existed . You gotta believe me when I say fairytales don't exist hahahahahahahaha .

5 . Ayid is sooo niceee . Like sooo fucking nice . And I'm so fucking crappy . Long story cut short , he's willing to be/take/accept/go through anything , as long as he get to be with me . He's just too good to be true . Alya Adriana , you suck , you suck platypushit .

6 . Last but not least , I feel lost . I can't really describe this empty feeling . Something is missing . Like someone took a part of me...and I don't know...it's like I'm not the same Alya Adriana anymore .