Part Time Best Friends

It's amusing watching you trying to make every single girl in this planet to fall for you . What are you trying to prove ? And to whom ? Go fuck every girl on this planet , write your phone number just about anywhere , give out your number to just anyone who have vagina , check out every single being who owns a pair of hanging boobies , but DON'T , don't come crying to me and say you miss me , don't stop me when I go out with any of your , whadaya call them (?) , 'untrustable' friends (?) , don't tell me what not to wear , don't be mad at me when guys check out my pale thighs , don't scold me if I do things that YOU think are harmful . It's fucking unfair . You had all the fun flirting from this girl to another , but me , I can't even hang out with your friends (It takes hours to list everything you told me not to do , so neah , maybe next time) . Bullcrap . At least I have better taste than you do . The girls you flirted with are all fugly wugly . Not to mention , rempit-ish and overly desperate . You act like you're desperate too . What the fuck ? I don't get how your mind works , ex-boyfriend .

I am probably the most selfish and conceited person ever alive . Honestly speaking , I am . I don't even have a real best friend , like a fucking real best friend . Every girl have this one best friend who she loves the most than all her other best friends , but neah , I don't . Blame it on my selfishness and my sky high ego . I somehow have the ability of making my best friend turn on me or leave me etc etc etc . I'm also the biggest nuisance at home . My smallest sister is 7 and yet , mumy feels dealing with her is waaaay more easier than attending to this bratty self of mine . So yeah , you get the picture of how selfish and conceited I am , right ?

Okay , freeze ! I'm not that selfish . I actually care about someone . I cared a lot and bcs of that , I changed a lot for the sake of making him happy . I fucking care about this ungrateful idiot . This ungrateful idiot who don't seem to be bothered about my feelings , this ungrateful idiot who put my feelings on a fucking awful rollercoaster ride which I didn't enjoy at all . I'm capable of doing things that you did , too , Mr. Ungrateful Idiot . For example , flirting with 10 girls at the same MINUTE , well in my case it'd be 10 guys . In fact , I can do it better than you do . But I didn't . Yknow why ? Bcs I fucking care about how you feel . I feel so fucking guilty if I do those stuff . Yknow I cried my eyeballs out when you found out I flirted with this someone and I promised loads of stuff after that incident. But you ? What did you do to make up to everything that you've done ? You FUCKING did NOTHING ! YOU LET ME WALKED AWAY FROM THIS RELATIONSHIP . And yet you have the guts to hold my hands , stroke my face , twirl my curls , whisper Iloveyous to me even when I pulled my hands away everytime I felt the brush of your skin on mine , when I turned my face and refused to look at you , when I tilted my head so you'll be unable to touch any strand of hair on my head , when I kept muted everytime you whisper the phrase that you barely know the meaning of it . You act as though nothing happened . What the fuck , man ? Have you forgotten that I have emotions ? I went through a whole lot of crap , like fucking shitloads of bullcrap for you , Mr. Ungrateful Idiot . I went through all of those just to find out that you couldn't even give two fucks about it . And now you're doing this bipolar disease act . Wow , I don't know how the fuck I can withstand the idea of having you totally out of my life . Gosh . I love you too much . And I don't know why the fuck is that so .