These Things Take Backbone

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It'll be so cool if we have a controller like in Click . You can fast forward , rewind and pause . Yep , those are my favourite button .

I'd love to fast forward to the future bcs I seriously can't bear going through all these catastrophe at the moment . Trials , friendship issue , love life under construction . GOSH ! I'm just so clueless nowadays . This is so not Alya Adriana ! Alya Adriana is supposed to be a carefree person ! Not some kind of melancholic person who spent 23 hours a day daydreaming . Aiyayaiyayai .

Haih I wish I can rewind to happy times in my life . Those cute moments . We had our best days of our lives and I KNOW for sure , the both of us can never have anyone to replace that . Under construction under construction under construction . And this is why I hate letting in people into my life . Under this bitchy pretense , there's this girl who feel so insecure , so inadequate , so incomplete all the time . Lover boy , you gotta take me as I am or watch me as I leave . I'm in the process of becoming what YOU want me to be , so don't make it hard for me bcs you know what I'm capable of . Capiche ? If you want something , you have to earn it .

I gotta pause my life and figure out everything and pull myself together and goddddd there're so much going on in my life . So , *smiling sweetly* everyone , do me a favor and not add to my bucket of troubles and tears and craziness . Please , I'm begging all of you . And Alya Adriana is not someone who begs but she's doing it bcs she can't take it anymore . Thank you (;

ps . Tak payah nak masuk campur hal aku . Ishh . Tak mintak tolong kau pun . Tak kelakar kay bila benda kau yang buat , aku pulak yang kena panggil jahat . Dah la tak nak mengaku . Aku tahu kau siapa memang macam shotgun aku hambur .

pps . And Alya Adriana really appreciates it when people treat her nicely . You know who you are . If you're reading this post ; thanks (;