Fine. I quit.

i thought we have this earnest understanding between us . but nope , i thought wrong . i thought you really did care . okay , that's partially correct i guess . but yeah , PARTIALLY . you made me think that you'd be there aaaaawwwllll the time . a humogous NO for that . i thought you'd make things better . and again NO . i thought you said you're better than that particular person . well , you guys are two very similar being actually . okay , whatevs , i think i've thought enough . i don't feel like typing my fucking fingers off because i'm fucking pissed . well actually , i don't deserve to be pissed at you . kan yang kan ? HA HA silly me . know what ? we should make clear to each other that this so-called-special-FRIENDship is not so special after all . so let's just stay with the you-are-just-one-of-my-friend-not-my-one-and-only-special-best-friend-i-can-depend-on connection . lets ? and please , don't make me turn back and repeat my foolishness , will you ? don't held me back like what you always did . it seems like our so-called-'fun'-world fell apart into two pieces and each pieces are trailing on the opposite orbit . can we try to synchronize ourself again and somehow patch our world together so that we can spin together again ? if you ask me , i'll answer "i'd do anything to work things out" . are you willing to do that ? god , i can't help to ponder . do you still care ? have your feelings changed ? if it did , then don't hold me back . lemme go . yeah , you might think that you're not holding me back . the usual "you are free to do anything" talk . but you're holding me back mentally . there're times when you're too cold that it broke me apart but there're also times that you're too warm you melt me to the ground . okay , shut the hell up , alya ! and mind yourself not to be one of those pathetically melancholic person like you-know-who haha (sorry , i can't help being sarcastic) . well , let's end this pathetic entry with a round of applause and award myself with the award for the most blunt judgement ever . yeay me !