only one

yep, we're above best friends and wayyyy above friends. our conversation last night explains everything. but i would prefer it if we're best friends because then, i would have a best friend that i can truly trust and who i can confide EVERYTHING to. now, i don't have any :'(

i wish you're still in school. i miss 2007. i miss it when we're constant reccess partners. i miss all the time spent at the school library bitching about the beast and the beast haha. i miss all those acting-as-lovers for making the b and the b jealous. it was hilarious man! and puan rahayu and puan siti fatimah always thought we were a couple while at that time we were nothing more than best friends and being bonded in a romantic way never did crossed our mind. everytime puan rahayu sees us together she will smirk and do this gesture with her finger teasing we're a couple while puan siti fatimah will say "amboiamboi bukan main lagi yeee (insert name here). kamu jual minyak yee?" and both of us will chuckle and chuckle non stop. it didn't matter what people would make out of us at that time. all that matters is we have each other for ourselves. and those times spent at yus or maple acting-as-lovers dating hahah. and remember that boat and that swan i made for you? with all the writings and drawings inside the folded part. i was childish haha. i was just 14. an immature, spoilt, puerile, impulsive girl. and you, you were always rational, matured and oh i don't know but you're the exact polar opposite of me. what an eccentric combo.

and those times you stood up for me, stood by my side, always present during the hardest times, washed away all the tears i cried, made me laugh and smile during times when being happy seems impossible. thank you. i'll try to make it up to you someday.

we're best friends till now. okay, maybe not. not until you decided we're above friends.

we can always be frank to each other about everything. giving each other a negative comment is normal and it'll not hurt each other because we know that we have each others interest at heart. and that "Confession" game we played tells each other EVERYTHING about ourselves. and you talk to me about those beautiful girls and i confide to you about my love life. we're two very different or as i said before, exact polar opposite entities but somehow we can exist in each others live. it's essential that we exists in each others live or we won't be whole. there's just no one that gets me like you do. i don't want to lose my one and only best friend. can you grasp that?